Thursday, September 13, 2018

Dust Off the Old Blog for Baby #3

Baby #3,


Ahhhhhh! I'm 13 weeks pregnant, but it's still overwhelming to think about, although incredibly exciting. As you might notice by the lack of pre-pregnancy letters, our journey for you was quite different from your sisters. Let's just say that we took what was a VERY small chance, being ok with the VERY small chance that we would get pregnant, knowing that it took fertility meds for Felicity, and many months of charted trying for Clare, and, well, here we are :). Though I initially completely freaked out at being pregnant (after all, I had taken 2 negative tests before the positive and really did not think it was possible I was pregnant), I remembered me something that has brought me peace every day since then. And bare with me if you aren't Catholic/religious, because this concept might be super weird to you. A couple days after said chance was taken, I prayed to God. I told God that I was not sure daddy or I would have it in our hearts to be that open again and that if it was His will for there to be another baby in our family, he better work with what we gave Him. I have no doubt that you were in God's plan for our family all along. Daddy and I both had so many reservations and hesitations about whether to grow our family or not, simply because of the needs of our current children (and ourselves!), but I'm so glad we took that chance and God ran with it. Felicity is beside herself with joy. She will be 5 when you are born and is already, seriously, the most amazing sister ever, so I have no doubt that'll extend to you, too. I love seeing her level of excitement and understanding at this age. She talks about you almost every day, and went to our 8 week ultrasound to see our little bean. Clare doesn't quite get it, but will point at my stomach and say "baby tummy?". She needs lots of reminders to be gentle with mommy's tummy, but she's getting there. Just before I found out I was pregnant, both girls became really interested in babies which really tugged my heart strings. That has continued, as well as playing babies, and playing baby dolls has really picked up. Your sisters are processing the wonderful news and are so excited. I know we'll have growing pains but, if I'm honest, I knew deep down I wasn't "done". Despite the fact that my last pregnancy was pretty awful and I don't really love nursing, I didn't feel done with either of those things. I wanted to feel one more baby grow, feed one more baby, watch one more baby meet milestones. I'm so glad it's you. We left gender a surprise with your sisters, but we are going to find out with you. I'm nervous I will regret it (finding out at birth has been SO MUCH FUN!), but we want to experience this side of it, plus I really need to know whether or not to keep the closet FULL of girl clothes for a Feb/March baby that I have stored! Your cousin is due March 12th, just before your March 21st due date. So many babies :). Love you so much and keep growing, little one. Now I should probably go take a "bump" picture since I'm already 2 pictures behind. Sorry 3rd baby :).

Love,
Mommy